Grattitude

somehow I am getting my needs met in amazing and different ways than I ever imagined. I feel that as I relax into this I feel ___________’s heart opening in my chest. I can feel “her” or what I experience as her, here, now in my heart, also my throat all over my body. This is an ecstatic reality to love, that I have never embraced before….. I imagine, or dream into being, I invoke and entreat Aphrodite and Hera, all who look kindly upon us for all their blessings on our communal, expanded sharing inclusive love; this psychic & magical connection that spans space and time. In this way she can be away and I will be just fine, because I am with her. I imagine that I can tune into her, and of course she can and does tune into me.

So this is beautiful, I see that how I hold myself, how I focus my attention and live my life, manage my feelings, will be the energy she experiences and what will ultimately influence her decision whether or not to be with me. Actually I have learned how to tune into other lovers but never in a good way. It is sweet to constantly caress ______ and make love to her all day long. This is so easy and so right. This is what waking up is all about, Not ________, but love, and being alive in the world, opening myself to all of life, everyone and every moment, living life as one ongoing “Yes” to all that comes, as my spontaneous gift to life, to god and to my friends and lovers, always.